MY BODY LANGUAGE

I used to start my unfortunate tales with a “once upon a time”; and sadly this is not another old story, it's happening again. There was a time I found a hole in every step I take because I’m really good falling for someone at very first time. I never started those days with the right foot, apparently my bed decided to turn around and gave me the worst side to the world. Sometimes, I feel like one little crumb of the morning bread. 

My words came out with warnings now, and is difficult to keep my mouth shut, I even threaten with a fork, but my body speaks better than my tongue and I don't meant to be that way, but How can you stop a flock of corporal expressions? They only fly. So if you really good at it, then you could read me and once you read my body language you already know the meaning. 

There was a time that I wanted to fly away without safety parachutes in my back, I didn´t want to read the flying manual. Life does not have a handbook to live it, you write it using your own decisions with the most powerful and long-lasting ink. I enjoy loving you so much, that I didn't care about people has to say about you. I believed in you. 

You could have it so much better, they so to me. But, somehow you knew how to turn the key which opens my heart to you, baby. My pulse is optimistic, desperately seeking for the right touch, and you did it. 

When I found out the true, was bittersweet. You body language talks too and I didn't wat to read it. My doubts wait for a long time until it explodes, and my backtalk once again screwed up, I didn't know to handle the drama. My head has to take the hangover of your daily doses of nonsenses. My eyes couldn't help to avoid those deep feelings drowned into my wet tears underneath my eyelashes. If you are not my one try love, then I wonder if “the one” has smelled my footsteps over the sand every single night.

I can't search for another one, the searching is quite hard, because my arms may not be ready to give honest hugs.  My friends told me: “when the cat is out, the mice come out to play”, for me that´s a interesting choice of you or a weak one. Lucky for me I inherited firm legs to run away this time when the storm falls over my messy hair. I don't want to deal with you. And when the little sunshine comes true, I won't feel it's over.

I need to be ready to strikes back, in war everything is acceptable. I whipped away all the gossips about me, let those people eat my leftovers. My body and my choices would tell more than my words, I gonna let you speechless. I know that talking to you is like talking with a huge wall of brick. Now I would allow my body to tell you what I'm feeling. You won't hear it from my lips this time, I just gonna walk away. 

The aftermath is catastrophic, like every summer ends the dreamer must wake up.  I’m such a dreamer, they say “old habits die hard” and it is hard to stop loving you, but I need to. I'm gonna stop been that fool and good person with you, I guess I have to sell my halo before heaven turn into the coldest hell. I have a deal with the devil, now we are accomplices like two thieves.

Some doors have many locks, mine is open to those who turn right the key and know how to read my body language without saying a word, cause that's the definition of someone who cares about you. 

You and I are done, and I won't tell you why, the cliffhanger is one of my gifts and I hope you enjoy it. I won't look back and I better use my brain twice before I giving up. The heartbreak is a hard language to learn, time will find someone to give you that lesson too.

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 Por Carlos Gerzon

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